My first hand experience with a rapist- I was a virgin

It was my 20th birthday. All was well and I was so greatful to my uncle Nick for allowing me to throw a bash in his house. The party was super all my friends and relatives turned up. Nick was a senior bachelor. He was a player and always told me that he didn’t want to be pinned down in marriage. I was living with him and he brought all sorts of dffrnt women at home.

I didn’t mind as long as he paid my college fees, fed me well and gave me my freedom. On this special night, since it was my birthday, I was allowed to drink more alcohol but i went a little overboard. So he refused me to go out with my friends coz he wasn’t sure if I will be safe. It was cool with me coz for real I was drunk to my toes. Conspicuously missing was his best friend who I knew had always had eyes for me. Jack was tall, chocolate skinned, handsome with potholed dimples……but just like my uncle he was a player too. Let tell you how my birthday night turned into Rape Horror once everyone left for the club and I was left alone drunk in the house….

In my drunken state, I gathered the dirty dishes and put them in the kitchen sink. At some point I sat down to gather more strength to clean the house, but I couldn’t. I left for my bedroom consoling myself that the cleaning lady will cm next day and sort out the mess.

But 1st I took three glasses of water, a habit I copy pasted from my uncle. I lay on the bed on the bed for ten minutes then it occurred to me that I didn’t lock the main door. I tried to lift myself but but my head felt so heavy……aaah to hell! Atlst uncle won’t bother waking me to open whn he is back, after all the place was so secure. I immediately drifted off to slumber land. But not for long.

I was woken up by the sound of glass breaking….twangla! I immediately became sober but my head was heavier than before. “Who is there? Uncle? Silence. It was my imagination. I was fond of covering myself fully to the head.

After another ten minutes I heard another twangla! Some1 was definitely inside the house. I wanted to scream….but that would let the intruder know sm1 was in the house. My bladder was full….it was time to pee on the bed or slowly crawl down and pee on the floor, but the chwaaaaaaaa of mkojo would definitely lead the ‘burglar’ to my room. While I was still thinking on whether to kojoa on bed or crawl and do it while covering my nunu with my hands ndio itoke mos mos, I heard the door to my bedroom open. My bludder blast, not actually…… literally. I saw his shadow…..

He was tall and huge. At first I thought its Jack. But he was fatter. Who are you? I asked coiling myself towards the edge of the bed….please don’t hurt me I am a virgin! “Shhhhhhhh…..don’t talk, and if you scream I will slit yr throat in seconds. Lie down and on yr back, I will be very fast” he said in a deep and husky voice. He was a total stranger.

In a flash he pulled me from the corner where I was trembling like a leaf and made me lie on the bed with my legs apart…..mkojo was still boiling in my bladder. I wished I had peed kabisa coz the thought of being raped na bladder imejaa kama mutura wasn’t interesting. Pombe iliiisha kwa kichwa. I had two options beg for mercy or cooperate and stay alive. He wore gloves and I couldn’t see his face….it was pitch dark. After kuringia akina Jack with my nunu, now a total stranger was going to just break my virginty thru rape, mk me pregnant or infect me with God know what. I tried to scream but no sound came….instead I croaked like a frog being strangled by a python.

He was a lot bigger than me so i couldn’t fight even if I wanted to. He threatened to do horrible things to me if I scream. I was to stay quiet and only mourn sweetly, he pushed and pinned me down. I tried to hold my pants tightly so he won’t take them off but wapi! He grabbed my hands away and squeezed them, looking into my eyes, letting me know, he’s not gonna allow any bullshit. He pulled my pants down so roughly and I started to sob , He spread my legs apart and shoved his dirty fingers in there first, I shivered! He then removed his belt, opened his zip and dished out his huge mutree and tore into me like a lion does to it’s prey.

I thought i was going to die, he held my mouth with his wide palm. I couldnt stop crying, my mind raced, I was so terrified, so sad so alone so f*cked up. He went further in and kept saying “I got you first bitch”. I squealed in pain! he smacked and choked me as he continued to thrust himself in me. I kept my eyes closed and pretended to be playing with her teddy bear, and not being raped… anything to get my mind off of how terrible what I was going though was. I suddenly threw up and felt my bludder bursting in me. I was slowly drifting into a coma coz the pain went through into my brain…..I went numb. I was dying from his choke and pain

He was licking my face with his long tongue and he penetrated with all his might. I didn’t care anymore coz I was dead already. I lay there and let him molest, tear and do injustice to my virginity. Whoever it was knew I was left alone….but who could it be? The voice wasn’t familiar, I couldn’t see his dark face. I cried to God to take me away because I couldn’t live my life after that painful ordeal. I was already in a casket, 6ft under. Yes I was dead.

Suddenly it was wet everywhere, i felt like i was drowning. Someone was holding my head in water and not letting go. Then he let me breathe for a second before slapping me do hard. It was uncle Nick slapping me to wake up since i had peed on the bed. Standing by my bedroom was Jack laughing his lungs sore. It was 8am in the morning. It was all a dream. To date i have never been drunk again. Thanks for your sorry’s but some dreams are worth sharing. Thanks for your company. Blessings.